Sunday, October 26


Ok, I guess it was the ending of the year that made me slightly more philosophical nowadays... (And probably the classical music that's playing in the background...) But anyway, it's a year over, more or less. (Actually there's still two months left, but I'm gloating over my post exams period already... Hehe...) Just wanna to recap whatever I've done, and to make new resolutions, although I never seem to fulfil those wretched promises... Oh well... (Shit, now Britney's playing and I have mental block...)

...... (Switches to Red Hot Chilli Pepper...)

Where was I? Oh ya, now that I've realised, this Rip Van Winkle thingy has been stuck with me for the better part of the week, and I think I want to air it out. I haven't felt this way ever since... I don't know, I doubt I've felt this way so acutely before. Sec 3 was too hectic to make me feel any sense of loss... Ya, that's how I pharse it, a sense of loss and disorientation. Sec 4 I was still running on treadmills for my 'O's, and before I knew what was happening, I was shipped to Kuching and back again for my JC 1 orientation. Right now, even as I speak, people are burning oils and grabbing Buddha's legs for the last minute catching up. But for me, though as much as PW irks me to the max, I can't find the enthusiasm that should have kept going for the next two months. Not even the thought of JC 2 appeals to me.

(Bosson's 'Where Are You' starts playing... Quite apt...)

Ok, fine, so I am just a little crappy, who would complain for a bit of extra time given to you? I would, coz I just lost my direction in life. There's nothing much for me go on. Promo's over, I earned my grades... so? Yah, that's just great. Kuching trip's coming, yay... but surprise, there's no spark in it. Life's just sort of cooled down. Coz I am not in Xinmin? Probably.

('Tell me, Have you ever love and lost somebody, wished there was a chance to... Yah, that's the song...)

So what? Don't complain, coz I should learn to accept my present fate and stop visiting ghosts of the past? Come on, I'm the complain queen around here, but I know better than to groan and grumble about the drastic changes that's happening in my life. Life's just not worthy of your constant sulking and puking. But well, it's just a phase I have to go through, and everyone goes through. I know people come and people leave, that's a constant in life, but I do hope people understand that it's not the ultimatum in life. People change, so be it. Accept things that come your way.

(Zhou Jie Lun's 'Shi Jie Mo Ri' starts... Oh man... How many times must I say it's not the end??!!)

Posted by Isabelle at 5:23 pm